Reflection

Recently many many unpleasant things happen and it made me go crazy. Thinking very immaturely and not being my usual self. Nothing was going right and it made me feel so helpless and lost....

I feel sick for one whole week and its not getting much better.....

Its time to take some time off and sit down and thing through things properly, just thinking, reflecting and nothing else.

I sat down and think through things one by one and realise that i wasn't really thinking and processing things all along and making the wrong decisions or made the decisions and regret it because i wasn't able to get what i want. I think i was stubborn. I wasn't being the strong and perspective person i used to be. My strong self is getting tired and giving in. I need rest.

There are things that i have to let go and let the situation take control. let God help with the flow. I have to learn to release my grip on things before my hands start to bleed.

Now, i'm more relax and cleared many thoughts and have made some decisions to change in the way i do things. I guess i just can't be strong forever in all things. I am a normal person too and i have to admit it. 

It's time for a rest :)