I shall officially leave this blog behind...

Dear all,

This blog is getting dead as things happen in life and you can see my recent post on this blog is pretty much emotional.

Well if you are still interested in my life and whats up with me, head over to my new blog where i decided to start a new blog, a new start! Time to leave things behind and move on :)

Link to my new blog is: http://charmaineskx.blogspot.sg/ 

Dont worry, if you want to read back my old post if its inspirational to you cause this blog will not be deleted. from time to time i would repost some at the new blog :)

Thank you all for your support and love! thanks so much for reading!!

xoxo,
Charmaine

迷失。。。

快半年了，你让我迷失了方向。

我寻找这我自己，我是谁？

我想要的是什么，我日夜思想。

胡乱的摸索， 何时才能懂。

人生有徐徐多多的不确定，起起落落

喜。怒。哀。乐

我到底在寻找什么？

我要什么？

我是谁？

大概半年前，他离开了我。

我以为新工作是新的开始，但却是劳力，疲惫的开始。

忍痛了那么久，我决定学习放下。寻找新的方向。

我终于递辞职信了。

不明的轻松和期待涌上心头。

希望我这次的决定能以我的兴趣打出一片未来！

让我忘掉过去的不愉快，展开新的旅程！

PS。前些日子到了韩国，会尽快分享的😊！

凯心❤️

Charmaine

Simple Things Made Complicated

Hi!

I am very confused and irritated actually.

Lawyers....

Lawyers have the tendencies to make their life and other people life difficult. In court nevermind. But why make simple everyday life thing into complicated procedures.

A simple call to a customer service also must take down name and number (stressing the poor customer service officer) Why cant do it the commoner way and lead a easy life?

At work stress le at home also want to stress. Whats the point? SERIOUSLY!!!


How to enjoy life this way!

My first Full-time job interview...

Hmmm... Well... It didnt go very well. I was suppose to come up with my own job scope den he giving one to me... Kinda weird but well, im suppose to be the first to have that position in that company... But it's just weird... Got a internship post instead for 2weeks...

Today sent out many cover letters to companies hope they'll reply me soon! Seriously hope i'll get a well paying job and i like the job scope soon!!! 

Arghhhh!!! Not study type but must do research for jobsss!!! OMG!!!!

Wish me luck!! :)

My last exam paper?

Today will be the last paper. 

Totally not prepared for it. 

My whole mind is full of anticipation for the upcoming interview on thursday and starting a whole new chapter in my life with "Working" 

Im super excited and looking forward for the job interview and with serious hope and views of starting work soon. Hopefully this time it will be a successful decision as uni is a total trial mode. 

Im imagining myself starting work, meeting new people, getting my first official full-time paycheck and treating my loved ones to a nice meal.

I wont say i am 100% sure that i'll get the job buy im more than 100% sure that i'll do my very best to impress for the iterview. 

So looking forward to it!! 

Do pray for my interview and my new journey ahead. 

Studying is really not a choice for me now. Nothing goes in when it comes to exam.... Haizxxxx

What lies ahead?

Hmm... I've always known im not the study type but as i couldnt find a job after poly i've decided to try uni.

It started of okay but when exams are near i realise its super tough. The exam hall which holds 4000 students makes me stress. Nothing goes into my mind...

Instead of wasting money and time on something im not good in, i've decided to go for something which i am better at. Working. Im more of a practical hands-on person den a textbook theory one.

Guess i'll just have to say bye bye to that uni degree cert for now and give up the honor of "first degree holder in the household"

I pray that God will give me the chance in the coming interview to get a job and give me a chance to have a new beginning for the future...

Hope everything goes well soon.....

About Love

Recently my church small group came across the topic of LOVE. Is it a feeling or a decision. Then i remembered reading this article:


During a seminar, a woman asked," How do I know if I am with the right person?"

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind
replied the author.

Here's the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you
fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,
want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you
may begin to desire that experience with someone
else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know
WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO! ♥

I miss my blog

I miss blogging at my blog.... Think i should blog sometime soon :) exam period :( STRESSEDDDD!

HI!

Hello!

I'm back. been lazy updating blog and i was thinking of creating hand-written journal instead. Anyway have been reading some books but have yet to finish them and so cant intro any yet. Many things have happened, good and bad, happy, sad and angry. But all thing had had their exit.

I wouldnt say i have a perfect life story or a exciting one. Everything is normal and many things have changed. i think i've changed too, in some way. but not sure if its noticeable yet. Trying hard to change the way i want it to be and hoping to be better :)
My bf has asked me to change in someways, some i think is true and helpful, some are just not being who i am which i consider not changing, especially after a talk with him about himself, i too would like him to change some stuff but he said that he wouldnt be him. so if i make myself change to something not i wanted, it wouldnt be me.

No matter what, i know i'm not a totally nicey nicey person nor a totally bad person. just normal and so i do want to change to be a nicer person (i always wanted) like how i acknowledge having bad temper and sometimes in some situation impatient and strong headed which is totally not helping la! so i'll change that :)

what a exciting year (at least for me as i've been through many things myself) and it's coming to an end. Have you prepared yourself for the season and a new year coming? i'm still preparing...

May all the best to all my readers,
(i not be updating as often anymore)

Loves,
Charmaine

Reflection

Recently many many unpleasant things happen and it made me go crazy. Thinking very immaturely and not being my usual self. Nothing was going right and it made me feel so helpless and lost....

I feel sick for one whole week and its not getting much better.....

Its time to take some time off and sit down and thing through things properly, just thinking, reflecting and nothing else.

I sat down and think through things one by one and realise that i wasn't really thinking and processing things all along and making the wrong decisions or made the decisions and regret it because i wasn't able to get what i want. I think i was stubborn. I wasn't being the strong and perspective person i used to be. My strong self is getting tired and giving in. I need rest.

There are things that i have to let go and let the situation take control. let God help with the flow. I have to learn to release my grip on things before my hands start to bleed.

Now, i'm more relax and cleared many thoughts and have made some decisions to change in the way i do things. I guess i just can't be strong forever in all things. I am a normal person too and i have to admit it. 

It's time for a rest :)

Haha!~ Another Book Read!

MORE BOOKS!!!!

Hello!~ Sorry for the lack of posts!

If you do realise, i'm very into books recently and all my posts are on books!!!!

YES! Another 2 books are read!!!!

This book (above) is my all time favourite childhood book and i've read it i think about 2 times and i've taken it out again to read making it 3! Still loving the little girl in the story. How i wish my kindergarden school is held in a train too!!! 

Want to know what i'm talking about? READ IT!!!!!

Another book that i re-read is Charlotte's Web - Another all time favourite childhood story!

It's about a pig's story of survivor from being slaughtered and consumed with the help of this friends especially this special spider - Charlotte

The moral of the story in this book is to be humble.

Want to know how the spider helps this cute little pig escape death and how it teaches humbleness? 

READ! Hahahahahaha!!!!!

OKIES! Thats all for today. Stay tuned for more book recommendations by ME! :D

The Measures of a Young Man

Hello all!,

Today i'm going to intro another book to my dearest blog readers. This book is our study books in church youth fellowship and its very motivational as it talks about how we can make a difference by talking to our close ones and building relationships along the way. When we face with difficulties and challenges how we are to face it with faith in God and pray for his guidance and to brave to face the challenge. :)

Backcover:
When his son, Kenton, was in junior high, pastor and bestselling suthor Gene Getz wrote a series of letters to him baed on 1 Timonthy 4:12: "No one should despise your youth; instead, you should be an example to the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity." Out of that powerful, life-shaping verse, Gene drew seven principles that he hoped would inspire Kenton to become a young man of faith, strength and godly character. Gene knew that true manhood doesn't happen by accident, and he prayed that his son would choose the right path.

In The Measure of a Young Man, Gene and Kenton, who is now a husband and father of five, have teamed up to share those seven principles with you. Inside, you'll be challenged to find your identity in Christ and to set high standards for yourself in words , in daily living, in loving others, in growing your faith and in sexuality. Good choices in these areas of life are what separate the men from the boys. Which will you be?

I don't understand....

It's always said that parents know their child best but sometimes it doesn't seems that way to me. They have troubles with their work but we also has ours in life. It's always so coincidental that whenever I meet with mine, either of my parents will come and ask me for help in something or just ask something. When you face problems you will usually hate people to come bother you. But I already tried my best to help as much as I can but they just always thinks that I'm not doing enough and thinks that u have attitude problem or bit sincere in helping at all. Den I get scolded -_-" the worse thing is it breaks my heart when he says that he 白疼我了. They face problem, not happy can release. I face problem, not happy cannot release. I totally can't understand la!!! Yea people don't usually bother about ppl but themselves. But maybe because I do that's what make me feel bad and sad. I want to take it easy but my years just decided to run down my cheeks. Well I feel better now after venting it here and talking it out to someone. I guess i'll just have to continue to learn to take such things as norms and hopefully in time I won't take things so hard on myself. Time to watch some comedy to make me feel happier :) Bye bye and good nights :)

Happy Valentine's Day!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!

To all my loved ones and to whom loves me :)

Seremban Trip - Malaysia!

Hi everyone!,

I'm sorry with the lack of updates! so i'm compensating with some photos from my trip to malaysia (i seldom post photo story oh!)

First trip to Malaysia on a night ride on the train! it took us 6hrs to reach our destination!!!!

Finally reached and taking a rest at my uncle's place before booking in to our hotel!

Whats better than a durian feast in Malaysia? We even got freshly plucked coconut too!

Eating ice-cream with my cousin. Their unique cone attracts all of us!~

Visit to one of the high class resorts nearby where we stay...

Final day and a BIG FAMILY photoshoot!!!!

Had a wonderful day at the beach with half of my cousins!!!! heehee!!!

And off course our final day shopping! bought some stuff but i like my new room slippers best! :)

What is happening to my final semester?

This semester is total hell!!!!! so many stupid things happen!

first a change in tutorial class because i'm the only who who hasnt complete my final module for my extra cert (not my fault also ah, the school dun wan give it to me last semester)

Projects are coming in like crazy....

Lecturer wasting time during lecture not talking on impt points and another insisted that the project is not done by us! (say extract only) when i spent 5hr just to sort the data for 1 graph!!!!!

AHHHH!!!! WHATS GOING ON!!!!!

I think i'm breakind down soon!!!!

It's a relaxing day today...

Went to a friends wedding this morning and the weather was real good. It didnt rain untill the time a went home :) a blessed day indeed.

Congratulation Brandon & Eleen! Have a blessed marriage! :)

Decided to try out the flavoured Lipton tea that i bought the other day wheni went grocery shopping.

LIPTON - CRANBERRY, RASPBERRY & STRAWBERRY TEA!!!!!!

It taste very berry and refreshing and smoothing! :) Loving it! Something different when you have time to relax, have your favourite book or magazine and complete it with some music and a cup of tea. :)

Want to try the other flavours sometime :)

International Remembrance Day 11th Nov

Remembrance Day (also known as Poppy Day) is a memorial day observed in Commonwealth countries to remember the members of their armed forces who have died in the line of duty since World War I. This day, or alternative dates, are also recognized as special days for war remembrances in many non-Commonwealth countries. Remembrance Day is observed on 11 November to recall the official end of World War I on that date in 1918; hostilities formally ended "at the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month" of 1918 ("at the 11th hour" refers to the passing of the 11th hour, or 11:00 a.m.)

Reference: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Remembrance_Day

Blue Nails!!!

This is what happens when you forget to wear gloves to wash a pair of jeans that fades... *sign*

Life!